Sometimes we don’t give ourselves the credit we deserve. We expect so much from ourselves that we paint a picture of someone we don’t recognize. In doing so, we lose ourselves to the ideas and beliefs of the outside world.
That was how I used to be.
I was a person who put my worth and value towards external validation. If I did a great job at work, then I was a great employee. If I made dinner on time for my family, then I was a great mother.
But when I wasn’t having a great day at work or dinner was made an hour later than normal, I would go towards a full-on shame spiral.
“Come on Kim you know better why can’t you get it together you’re such a failure,” would be just a few things that would emerge from my brain. Sometimes my husband can see my face and know when I’m shame spiraling, which is his cue to walk towards me, look at my face, and say “Hey, you’re doing the best you can and that’s enough.”
And while I am very fortunate to have a partner that can pull me out of a shame spiral, I know that I also have to learn to take myself out of it, which can be very difficult.
I expect myself to keep pushing, to not focus on the past or present, and to think about the future, but what if I had this all wrong?
What if I just give myself the grace to realize all that I have been through, and all I have overcome, and reclaim the strength inside to know that I am enough, just as I am?
We are taught to never settle and to keep pursuing a better version of ourselves, but what about appreciating the version that exists today?
Whatever happened to reclaiming everything that we have gone through with the eyes of love and appreciation? What about looking at our war wounds, grazing our fingertips over the scars, and acknowledging the incredible reality that we are still here, living?
If you’re like me living on this spinning rock called Earth, then you know how difficult it has been to live in the world that we currently live in. With ongoing wars, mass shootings, political drama, and an economic nightmare, it can be tough to keep pushing through.
Yet you are still here, still living, still waking up and giving it your best, and that is something to applaud.
You matter. You are here for a reason, to live a purpose-driven life filled with love and abundance.
Regardless of the state of the world, your past mistakes, and hurts, you’re still breathing and waking up to see another sunrise, and that is a miracle.
Yes, it’s great to have goals you want to achieve and an idea for the future you want to manifest, but we can still get there if we take the time to nurture ourselves, acknowledge that strength we have to continue to live life to the fullest and take pride in everything we have gone through.
Appreciate the strong warrior inside of you that has gotten you here, this far, at the point in time, and know that there is so much more life to live and bask in.
Til next time,
Kimberly